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Slaying Shadows With God’s Armor~Part 2

Hello lovely readers and followers! Welcome to part 2 of my new series called Slaying Shadows with God’s Armor. If you missed part 1, you can read it here. This series will be focusing on all 6 attributes of the armor of God listed in Ephesians 6:10-18. I hope you enjoy! 

Sam fought the urge to glare at the customer in front of him. The man just stood there, puckering his lips as he spoke.

“How long does a person gotta’ wait for a table ’round here?”

Sam grabbed a menu as he turned away from him. “Sorry sir. We’re quite busy.”

As the man muttered more complaints, Sam found his thoughts slipping into a new world. One that wasn’t a diner that attracted permanently dissatisfied middle-aged people who grated against his last nerve.

He dreamed about a fresh start, a new town where no one knew his name. Somewhere his past didn’t haunt him anymore.

Not five minutes after his shift ended, Sam felt his phone vibrate in his pocket. He ignored it, running his hand through his sandy blonde hair as he left the diner. His twin sister, Paulena, was relentless in her quest to contact him.  After their argument that morning, Sam decided it was about time he moved out.

“What the…” Sam looked around as he approached his motorcycle, the January air biting his face. When he checked the storage compartment, he noticed that his helmet was gone, and in its place was a black, shiny new one–the expensive kind. What he couldn’t figure out was how someone had picked the storage lock to commit this odd vandalism.

He shook his head as he examined the helmet. That’s when he noticed the piece of paper that had fallen out onto the snow-dusted concrete.

Suddenly Sam felt immune to the cold as he became absorbed by the letter’s words.

My Dear Sam,

I know you’ve been running lately, thinking that you can escape the mistakes of your past. I want you to know that you can stop running now. You can come back home to me– I welcome you back with loving arms. Please wear this armor of mine. It will always keep you safe. 

Love, Jesus. 

Sam couldn’t make sense of the emotions that were twisting themselves into a violent knot inside of him. Who knew about his past? About the wrong he had done? He used to be a good little church kid…until he did the unthinkable.

But not even Paulena knew about that.

Sam clenched his shaking hands as he strapped the strange helmet onto his head. He crumpled the letter into his pocket, wishing he could forget about the whole “God’s armor” thing.

Sam started the engine of his motorcycle, revving it as the darkness of night enveloped him.

..you can stop running now.

Sam could hardly see as the shadows grew darker, like an ominous fog trying to choke him.

You can come back home….

He screamed as he lost all control, his bike flying out from under him as he landed head-first onto the frigid pavement.

When he opened his eyes, Sam knew he had to be dead–or at least close to it. It took his breath away when he realized he felt no pain. He sat up and brushed off the snow from his leather jacket. Not only was he alive, but he didn’t have a single scratch on him.

Sam reached up to remove his strange new helmet, but stopped when he saw a flash of light breaking through the shadowy fog.

Without hesitation, Sam got up and ran to the light, forgetting about his bike. When he reached the parking lot of the old apartment complex, he gasped at what he found.

A woman about his age was dancing around the lot. She moved gracefully–almost otherworldly–her face relaxed as every step she took lit up the night around her and left footprints that looked like sparks.

Sam dropped to his knees.

“This can’t be real. God, am I in heaven?”

That’s when he heard the whisper in the wind.

No, but will you come home? 

“You don’t want me,” Sam wept with clenched teeth.

The words of the letter flashed like lightening, brightening his spirit.

I welcome you back with loving arms.

Sam’s tears turned into laughter as he accepted the invitation. He found himself letting go of all the guilt and hurt as a warmth he couldn’t explain wrapped around him like a thick blanket.

After a few minutes, Sam finally stood, unsure of what all of this meant. Was he a Christian again, after all this time of separation?

And then he remembered that he wasn’t alone. The dancing woman stopped to look at him, the dazzling lights of her footprints glowing behind her.

Looking for something? 

The question hung in the air and he knew they both could hear it. Before he could say or do anything, Sam felt his pocket vibrate. Stunned that his phone still worked, he answered.

Paulena’s voice pierced his ear like a knife.

“Sam? Something’s happening. I think it’s…God.”

Take the helmet of salvation… (Ephesians 6:17 NIV)

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Slaying Shadows With God’s Armor~Part 1

Hello lovely readers and followers! Today I’m launching a new series called Slaying Shadows with God’s Armor. This series will be focusing on all 6 attributes of the armor of God listed in Ephesians 6:10-18. I hope you enjoy! 

Madeline swallowed back the lump in her throat as she ran her hands through her dark, sweaty locks.

She had been practicing for hours, on that old dusty laminate floor–turning and leaping to try and master every single move. She knew she never would, but that didn’t matter. It was a ballerina’s curse.

She finally gave in, her stomach crying out for nourishment. When was her last meal? She stood up trembling, realizing that both appetite and sleep were hard to come by these days.

As she left the desolate studio, Madeline just couldn’t shake the feeling of a shadow following her out the door. It was always there, oppressing her soul with fear and throwing off every turn or step she took. Life was a dance, and she just couldn’t find her rhythm.

By the time Madeline parked her car and made it up the stairs to her apartment, her feet were killing her. She could barely move her toes, as pointe shoes had a way of melting them together into a blistering fury.

She was so preoccupied by her aching feet that she barely noticed the small box in front of her door. It caught the corner of her eye, like a ray of light breaking up the shadows.

“What?” Madeline picked up the box, scrutinizing it as she entered her apartment. Christmas was a month ago, and she didn’t really have any friends to drop off a surprise gift.

When Madeline sat on her sofa and turned on a lamp, she noticed the piece of paper taped to the box. Taking it eagerly into her delicate hand, Madeline read aloud.

My dear Madeline,

I know you’ve been weary lately. Life can be so hard and confusing. I hope this gift takes some pressure off of you. Remember that whenever life becomes too much, you can always call on My name. My burden is light enough for you to dance through. Take this armor and have courage. 

Love, Jesus.

Madeline blinked as she dropped the paper. Was this a joke? She didn’t come from a religious family, and her dance academy didn’t exactly boast many devout Christians.

Take this armor and have courage. She didn’t know what the letter meant, but receiving a box that claimed to hold God’s armor peaked her curiosity.

Madeline sighed and opened the box. When she saw the pair of powder pink suede boots, her breath caught.

“No way,” she mused as she slipped them on her feet. The moment she stood and her soles hit the bottom, Madeline felt relief flood her body. The pain in her feet instantly vanished, as well as the hunger and fatigue.

They fit perfectly.

“Whoa.” Madeline couldn’t help but grin. Without another thought, she grabbed her jacket and ran outside.

The parking lot of the apartment complex was dark, the winter moon tucked beneath a blanket of clouds. Madeline didn’t care. She giggled like a child as she swayed and turned, using the blanket of snow beneath her feet to give her leverage as she spun like a figurine.

There was no pain. No fear. No stress.

Only freedom. Only peace.

When she finally stopped dancing, Madeline looked out over the snow glazed parking lot. Although her world was dark and silent, every single footprint she had left behind shimmered like a light, casting away any shadow that had surrounded her.

Madeline gasped as she saw what was etched into the snow print of each step. She raised her foot to examine the bottom of her new boot. Sure enough, engraved into its sole was one word.

“Jesus,” Madeline exhaled as the fog rolled out of her mouth. She didn’t understand much about God, and at this point, she didn’t have to. All she knew was that she needed this Jesus, and she would do anything to find Him.

Madeline turned to head toward her car, but then stopped when she noticed the figure standing near the curb. A low male voice echoed across the lot.

“Looking for something?”

…and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. (Ephesians 6:15 NIV). 

Thanks for reading and supporting! What do you think of the series so far? Stay tuned for Part 2 of Slaying Shadows with God’s Armor!

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Slaying Shadows with God’s Armor is written by Emily Susanne at fearfullywonderfullyme.com, 2017 © No part of this content may be copied or shared unless given permission by the author and linked back to this web address. However, you are encouraged to share the link to this post as well as all other posts! 

Summer Crochet + God’s Awesome Story

Happy Friday lovely readers and followers! I want to take a few moments to thank everyone who wished me a happy birthday this week. I am now twenty-three years old, and feel as if I’m on the starting line of some awesome changes and life adventures.

I always thought that being a teenager was supposed to be the best part of life. Even with the freedom and naivety of adolescence, I still think that the wisdom and relationship I have with Jesus now has opened the door to even more freedom.

Don’t get me wrong–I’m still far from having everything figured out. But I know deep inside that I’ll never have it all figured out. Only God can see the whole picture of our lives.

The worship pastor at my church gave me some really good advice this week. He told me to keep seeking and praising God and live without fear of the future. If we keep chasing after God, then when we look back at our lives, all of the things in life that don’t make sense right now will come together to create an awesome story.

I know that my story is just beginning, and I’m excited to see what God has in store for my future. 

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In the meantime…let’s talk fashion! I don’t think there’s a better summer staple when it comes to fabrics than crochet. It’s light and airy, yet still textured enough to make a statement. I’m a decent knitter, but I can’t wrap my head around how people can loop yarn into these beautiful designs and patterns with their hooks.

Crochet is everywhere this season, bordering the hems of blouses or showing up on bags and sandals. You can wear it as a pop of color, or in the traditional summer white. Don’t be afraid to mix things up and wear crochet patterns that are in the form of flowers or other girly designs. I also think a crochet cardigan makes the perfect summer cover-up to any dress or swimsuit. Crochet is definitely a trend you can experiment with in a playful, yet classy way.

for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose. (Philippians 2:13 NIV)

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Off-the-Shoulder Fashion Hacks

Happy Friday lovely readers and followers! I know, my fashion posts have not been consistent lately. I thought that since I’m on summer break, I would have more time to get blogging done. Well, life knows how to keep me busy. But I can’t complain because I have been able to spend some awesome time with my family and friends despite everything. I promise to make more of an effort in the future!

I think that Christian women tend to panic when the summer trends roll out. Crop tops, short-shorts, bikinis…oh my! I find that most trends can either be skipped or adapted no problem, and there’s one trend this season in particular that I want to discuss.

Off-the-Shoulder tops. 

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I know this trend may be controversial to some Christians, as shoulders are seen as immodest by some. Just to be clear, I am not judging your beliefs in modesty here. If you have different convictions than me, that’s totally cool. If you want to know more about my views on modesty, check out this post.

That being said, I think that women who like to keep things modest can totally rock an off-the-shoulder top in a classy way. These blouses are feminine and keep you cool in warmer temperatures. They also highlight a very flattering (and appropriate) part of the body on any woman. I think that floral print tops in bohemian shapes are perfect for summer. Use dashes of the color red to make a statement as you rock this trend.

Still not sure how to rock this look? See below!

Tips For Wearing Off-the-Shoulder Tops

  • Make sure to try on the blouse to make sure it isn’t too low cut. Only you know what looks best on your body.
  • Choose a top with thick straps if you need extra coverage.
  • Make sure to wear a strapless bra to keep things classy.
  • Since you are highlighting your shoulders and arms more, create balance by wearing long pants or a longer skirt.
  • Ask yourself, does this outfit make me look like a royal daughter of God? If so, then go for it!

I hope that you found these tips helpful! There is no need to fear a cute summer wardrobe. With a little adaptation and discernment, you can look cute and still glorify God.

For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s. (1 Corinthians 6:20 NKJV)

Thanks for reading! What are your plans for the summer? Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments below 🙂

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Abundant Life

I’m just gonna’ say it. I feel like all I ever do is write posts for those times when life is overwhelming or falling apart. You know, the hard times.

I’m an encouraging person, so writing posts that lift others up during their life battles is something that I love to do. I know God has used hard times to draw me closer to Him so that I could watch Him be glorified. I also hope the same can be said for you, lovely reader.

But what about life’s good moments? Moments when new opportunities are on the horizon, or when accomplishments have been made. Moments when prayers are answered or when relationships are going well.

Seems great, right? A season of joy should make us feel nothing but grateful…but what if it doesn’t? 

I’m the kind of person who can get anxious for no reason at all. I like to be in control of things in order to feel secure.

But where does this leave room for God?

This kind of anxious thinking and desire for control, even in good times, is a sign that we lack trust in Jesus. I say we, because I know I’m not alone. Sometimes blessings can terrify us because we are afraid to lose them. 

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. (John 10:10 NKJV)

Read this verse again. Our enemy is not our circumstances–whether good or bad–and it’s not God. Our enemy is the thief–the devil. Instead of enjoying life and praising God for our blessings, the devil wants to steal our joy and destroy our trust.

He wants to kill our faith.

We have to remember that God sees the whole picture of our lives. His knowledge is not limited like ours. Even when things go bad or if life doesn’t make sense, God can still work all things for our good.

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? (Romans 8:31 NKJV)

Sometimes I can’t believe this–that God is always for me! He wants to see His children enjoy life and live it to the fullest. The thief may come to destroy and steal from us, but Jesus came to give us abundant life.

We cannot see into the future, and we cannot control every outcome of our lives. I think that the best way to overcome this fear is to just let go and seek God like never before.

Lovely readers, don’t stop stepping out in faith when it comes to trying new things. Don’t shut yourself off from the fountain of life and joy that is in Jesus. Sometimes life’s greatest moments can teach us one of the greatest lessons of all.

They teach us to surrender. 

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