To the Girl Who Feels Disconnected from Jesus

Have you ever felt disconnected from Jesus?

You still believe in God, but you are just going through the motions. Your faith feels…dry.

I think that if we’re being honest, all of us have felt this way before. I just went through a season like this. I felt burdened by temptations and the demands of everyday life. There have also been exciting life events (such as the birth of my niece!), as well as difficult ones (like a family member being ill).

Sometimes the noise of life drowns out the voice and presence of God.

And then the absence of His felt presence causes us to be lethargic in our devotional life. Although in our minds we still believe, our hearts feel disconnected from our faith.

For a couple of weeks, I found myself wandering in a spiritual desert; one where I lacked energy to read my Bible or even pray at times.

One day, I was listening to a sermon on the power of worship–especially as a weapon for spiritual battles. And that’s when it dawned on me: I didn’t know the last time I’d sat alone and just worshipped the Lord!

As soon as my work day ended, I grabbed my Bible and got on the floor. There I sat, singing to Jesus and declaring the truth of His Word. That’s when I had a revelation.

In my mind I saw Jesus holding me with one arm, and in His other arm was a sword to defeat my enemies.

I instantly thought of the book series, The Chronicles of Narnia, by C.S. Lewis. The description of the great lion, Aslan, flooded my mind.

“Safe?” said Mr. Beaver; “don’t you hear what Mrs. Beaver tells you? Who said anything about safe? ‘Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the King, I tell you.” (source)

The next morning, as I read a Psalm to start my day, I found myself reading Psalm 144.

He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me. (Psalm 144:2 NIV) 

I realized that although I could not feel God’s presence, He’s never left me.

My Jesus is a mighty fortress. He delivers me from sin and shame. He’s a shield from the enemy, and the One in whom I take refuge.

Jesus is the Lamb of God, slain for the sins of this world (John 1:29). He’s also the roaring lion of Judah (Revelation 5:5).

In this life you will face many trials and temptations. You will walk through desert seasons of spiritual thirst. But don’t stop walking, lovely one.

Keep reading your Bible. Keep praying. Keep declaring God’s Word–because it’s the truth. And the truth is always greater than our feelings. 

Remember that the mighty Redeemer who fights for you is also the sweet Savior who holds you fast.

Although at times you may feel disconnected from your faith, you are always connected to the heart of Jesus.

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