• What 2017 Taught Me About Hope
    anxiety,  New Year's

    What 2017 Taught Me About Hope

    This blog post is co-authored by my boyfriend, Owen Wolf. (SUBSCRIBE BY EMAIL so you never miss a post!) A Year of Hope 2017 is coming to an end. Another year filled to the brim with memories that are already fading away as 2018 looms ahead with unwritten adventures. This year has been a crazy one for me. I was heavily involved in my church and finished my last year at community college. Eventually, I decided to take a break from being a youth leader as I started my senior year of college. Not only that, but I’m also in a relationship (as you can clearly see)! One theme of 2017…

  • Look toward Jesus to beat fear.
    anxiety,  faith

    In a Boat With Fear and Jesus

    Picture this: Three girls are sitting in a canoe on windy waters. One of them is in the middle, clutching onto the sides of the boat for dear life as it tilts and bobs. Even though her friends are paddling and assuring her that everything is perfectly fine, she can’t stop shaking and singing “Oceans” by Hillsong. That girl is me.  It sounds ridiculous now, considering how I was wearing a life jacket and was in a boat with two skillfully trained swimmers who I love and trust. But sitting in that canoe last weekend reminded me just how shaky and unstable this life can feel sometimes. Like a beautiful,…

  • anxiety,  faith

    Out of Focus

    I didn’t realize I was having a panic attack until I couldn’t breathe. I felt my throat constrict as I tried desperately to remember how to control my inhales and exhales. The only thing that seemed to bring me back was saying the name of Jesus. Anxiety is not something that is easily understood. I think that a lot of times, Christians simplify it by saying that anxiety is just a sign of a lack of faith. Even I was starting to wonder if my belief was strong enough. However, my world-shaking experience that day was not just from a lack of faith. I finally realized that, at the root of…

  • anxiety,  faith

    How Fear Becomes Faith

    I didn’t realize what a hypocrite I can be until I broke down in my room a couple of weeks ago. I was in the midst of making decisions about my education and the fear of the future was absolutely crippling. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t focus. I couldn’t even write. I was crying and crawling into my bed, wishing that I could just quit adulting. Ever felt that way before, lovely reader? I have a feeling I’m not alone. The only problem is that I didn’t feel like I could turn to God.   I write a lot on overcoming anxiety and trusting God, so freaking out and having…

  • anxiety,  faith

    Laughing When You’re Afraid

    I’ll never forget how terrified I was on my first airplane ride. At take off, as the plane raced down the runway and my mom described what was happening, my whole body tensed and my breath caught. And just like that, we were up in the air. Suddenly I went from being on the verge of hyperventilating to laughing from euphoria. Flying is amazing! This experience was only three months ago, and I have to admit that most of life is a lot like flying. I’ve posted about my struggles with anxiety before, and I know that I’m not alone here.  As I begin the final phase of my college…