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Once Was Enough

My hands cramp up as I

Knit stitch after stitch,

Trying to form the perfect tapestry

Out of an imperfect heart.

It never ends

This cloak of guilt.

Day after day I punch the sky,

Trying to find a way out

A way to freedom.

 

My legs are on fire as I

Run in staggered steps,

My lungs constricted by the winter chill.

I don’t know what I’m running from,

But I can feel the weight of it

Reaching for me like a dense fog.

Day after day I collapse into its dark embrace,

Wondering if there’s a way out

A  way to deliverance.

 

Always I try

To do more good.

To beat the pressure

Of a soul that’s constantly thirsty.

 

Always I try

To fix each stitch.

To pull together

The yarns of my sin.

 

Always I try

To run a little farther.

To leave behind

My ghost stained past.

 

But the yarn is cold and metallic,

A binding chain wrapped around my wrists.

I’m running around in circles,

But getting nowhere.

 

And that’s when You lift up my face,

Reaching for my hands as my fingers

Slip through the holes in Your palms.

 

And that’s when You smile

With blood cracked skin,

Revealing the burden You’ve chosen to carry.

 

And  that’s when I set

My needles down.

The chains breaking

As the yarn of rituals unravel.

 

And that’s when my feet

Come to a stand still.

My breath coming back in waves

As I inhale the present.

 

And that’s when I see

The cross in the thicket

Of my messy life.

 

I drop to my knees knowing that

Once was enough.

 

You’ve always been enough.

 

Written by Emily Susanne at fearfullywonderfullyme.com, 2016 ©


This is actually a poem that I am working on for my creative writing class. I wanted to share it with you, lovely reader, because I know what it’s like to struggle with guilt from the past. 

Sin has a way of trapping and isolating us. Even our well-intended mistakes as Christians can make us feel separated from God.

But God is a loving Father. You don’t have to keep trying to make up for your past sins. You don’t have to keep punishing yourself for your past.

Jesus died for your sins and faults. He was mocked, beaten, scourged, humiliated, and nailed to a cross to take YOUR place.  Why did He do this? Because God loves you. He loves you so much that He would, and has, gone to the most extreme measure to set you free.

It only took one sacrifice by our God on the cross to set us free. Once was enough. Now walk in this love.

 For by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy (Hebrews 10:14 NIV).


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3 Ways You Can Help Change The World

On a cold Friday morning, I opened my Bible, sitting cross-legged on my bedroom carpet. As I prayed, I felt a sudden urge to pray for airlines and their pilots, asking God to bless and protect them. Why did I do this? Despite my new found love of flying, I truly believe that the Holy Spirit led me to pray.

Later that afternoon when I checked the news, I saw the terrifying report of the Fort Lauderdale airport shooting.  My heart broke. So many lives were lost, hurt, and traumatized. I felt chills run down my spine as I realized why God had led me to pray.

When I looked back at my Bible reading for that day, my jaw dropped as I realized what God was telling me.

Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand toward the sky so that darkness spreads over Egypt—darkness that can be felt. So Moses stretched out his hand toward the sky, and total darkness covered all Egypt for three days. No one could see anyone else or move about for three days. Yet all the Israelites had light in the places where they lived (Exodus 10:21-23 NIV). 

This world is no stranger to darkness. Like Egypt during the Old Testament, our world is stained with sin and disobedience. A lot of times the hatred, violence, and evil in this world can overwhelm us. But before you get too depressed, please know that there is hope!

If we keep reading in verse 23, we can see how God’s people were a source of light in such oppressive darkness. Do you want to be a light in this fallen world? Do you want to radiate peace, love, and hope in times of hatred and contention?

These 3 steps will help you change the world for God’s glory.

Realize Your Identity

You can’t be a light for God if you don’t even know what you’re worth in His eyes.

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light (1 Peter 2:9 NIV).

This might be one of my favorite verses in the Bible. Trust me, knowing your identity in Christ is essential for living a transformed and influential life. Knowing your worth changes everything.

So who are you?

When you choose Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you are chosen, royal, holy, God’s, and called.

What are you called to do? To bring light into this dark world. This all starts by realizing that Jesus has brought you out from darkness and bondage into new life.

For more on identity, check out this post here.

Share Your Story

Now that you’ve come back from the breathtaking revelation of who you are as a child of God, it’s time for you to share your story.

You’ve probably heard other Christians talk about how important it is to share your testimony. All that really means is to share what God has done for you. It’s your spiritual before and after.

If you’re like me, the idea of sharing your story can be nerve-racking. Who would even want to listen? If you want people to truly listen to you and be affected by your testimony, you need to build relationships with them.

Do what Jesus did–eat a meal together or meet for coffee. Hang out together and share life. Once people get to know you authentically, your testimony will begin to flow naturally.

Walk in Love

Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. —Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. knew exactly what it meant to be a light for God. He chose to walk in peace in a land full of violence. He chose to love in a world full of hate.

What will we choose? Will we choose to love our neighbors, even when we disagree with them? Will we choose to forgive our enemies, even when it hurts? Will we choose to do the right thing, even when it’s inconvenient?

I’m not perfect. I mess up in this walk of love more times than I care to admit. But life is a journey that God takes His children on to watch them grow.

Jesus’ commandments were simple, yet so profound: love God and love people–including ourselves. Love has been washed down in our culture by the media and consumer driven markets. Do we even know what it means to truly walk in love?

Jesus is love (1 John 4:8), and He died willingly for us even when we were at our lowest. Are we willing to lay down our pride, our hurts, and our wants for others in this dark age? Are we willing to love the broken who are crying out for hope and healing?

If your answer is yes, then you are ready to shine a light for God. You are ready to change the world, one life at a time.

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12 NIV). 


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FirstFruits~Mirrors of Faith

Hello lovely readers and followers! Welcome to Part 4 of the FirstFruits series, which is the last part of our adventure together in James 1.

Recently I went to a youth convention with the youth group I help lead. It was awesome–over a thousand students worshiping Jesus together and hearing some powerful preaching! It really made an impact on my life as well. One of the speakers who preached (I don’t know why I didn’t write down his name) said something that really inspired me, and I think it goes really well with today’s post.

Are we going to spend our life looking in a mirror or walking out the door?

This is basically asking us if we are going to spend our lives focusing on ourselves and our wants, or are we going to go out and love people and tell them about Jesus? Are we going to be focusing on our glory or God’s?

James actually asks the same question in verses 22-25.

For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was. But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does (James 1:23-25 NKJV). 

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We can read the Bible from cover to cover and listen to sermons all day, but what does it mean if we don’t apply it to our lives? What does it all mean if we don’t spend time with God and His beloved children? What does it all mean if we don’t live out the faith we claim to have?

I’m not trying to make anyone feel bad. This was a huge wake up call for me too. Life gets busy with school, work, social media, and other distractions. We live in a “me” culture that teaches us to serve ourselves above all else.

But you and I can fix this. We can be the change this world is so desperately craving. If you want to make a difference, commit yourself to being a “doer” of the Word. Walk out your faith by following the footsteps of Jesus. We need to constantly abide in our Heavenly Father and seek His Holy Spirit for empowerment and guidance.

We need to look for opportunities to love and serve others. We need to build relationships with non-Christians to show them the way to God. It may not always be easy, but it’s worth it to save souls.

Above all, we need to remember that Jesus died for us so we can live for Him.


I hope you liked this series! I think that James 1 is such a powerful chapter on overcoming trials, keeping our hearts focused on Christ, remembering our identity, and walking out our faith.

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FirstFruits~Why You Were Created

Hello lovely readers and followers! Welcome to Part 3 of the FirstFruits series, where we continue to explore the concepts of James 1.

James 1 focuses on the Christian under trials. Most of us know what it’s like to experience trials and losses, and it doesn’t make us feel very special. It doesn’t always make us feel very loved.

Yup, I went there. It’s hard to feel loved by God when your whole world is falling apart. After all, where is God when all of these awful things are happening–when we’re persecuted, grieving, or fighting a battle? Why is He letting these things happen to us? 

Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren. Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and comes down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning. Of His own will He brought us forth by the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of His creatures (James 1:16-18 NKJV). 

These verses seem pretty positive compared to the feelings I previously stirred up. Let’s backtrack to verse 13.

Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am tempted by God”; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone (James 1:13 NKJV).

God does not tempt us or cause our trials. He is a God of good and perfect gifts. When James says that God has “no variation or shadow of turning” (verse 17), he is reminding us that God is constant in His love. We can know that God is still giving His children good gifts, and that He is not just sitting up above punishing us. He is a good and faithful Father!

The reason God lets us endure trials is so we can become perfected like Jesus (James 1:4). Once we put this chapter together–piece by piece–we can see how this all makes sense.

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The reason why I entitled this series FirstFruits is because that is a part of our identity in Christ. We are God’s children, and we are made in His image (Genesis 1:27). We are His most beloved creation. God didn’t have to make you, but He did, of his own will. He has a purpose for you.

In the Bible a firstfruit is the first part of the harvest that is the most important, as it is given as an offering to God.  As a child of God, you are more important than any other creature on the planet.

Now of course God loves all of His creation, but we humans bear something special. We are a reflection of God, and with His Holy Spirit, we can produce the fruit of love and grace just like Jesus Christ!

As God’s firstfruits, we need to give our lives as an offering to our King. This means surrendering our will for His. It means giving up our sins for His grace. It means trusting God to guide us and help us develop our gifts and passions for His glory.

No matter what trials we may face or what hardships may come our way, we can rest in knowing that our God is there, loving us and creating us for purpose. God wants good things for our lives and has given us the most perfect gift of all–a Savior. 

Jesus is the answer to all of our battles. He is the one who will never fail us. Trust in Him, beloved child of God. This is your purpose. This is why you were created. 


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FirstFruits~What Are You Pursuing?

Hello lovely readers and followers! Welcome to Part 2 of the FirstFruits series, where we explore the concepts of James 1.

What runs your life? That is the question James asks his fellow believers in verse 11.

For no sooner has the sun risen with a burning heat than it withers the grass; its flower falls, and its beautiful appearance perishes. So the rich man also will fade away in his pursuits (James 1:11 NKJV).

A lot of people think that James is condemning all rich people, and that it is evil to have money. That’s not true, as sin affects us all no matter if we are rich or poor. The key is this sentence: “So the rich man also will fade away in his pursuits.”

It’s not the money that hurts us, but rather our pursuit of it. This isn’t just about riches either. We often have many pursuits that are not about Jesus. Maybe it’s attention, relationships, our career or grades. Maybe it’s approval, or our appearance.

The truth is, we spend a lot of our time focusing on the wrong things and then wonder why our souls are left empty.

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Again, the Word provides the answer we need.

 But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, brings forth death (James 1:14-15 NKJV). 

Sometimes our desires for the things of this world get out of hand. Instead of setting our hearts on God and His perfect will, we focus on what we think the world can satisfy us with. Verse 15 clearly shows us that the world cannot fulfill our deepest needs. In fact, when not aligned with the will of God, our wants can lead to sin, and this sin leads to spiritual death.

Here’s some real talk–I’m not a perfect person. I know what it’s like to pursue the world and wind up empty. I tried to find acceptance in my grades, appearance, and approval of others. I was looking for the acceptance that I had no idea was right in front of me the whole time.

Even though I still struggle with temptations (after all, I am only human), I know the secret to a fulfilled life and soul. When we pursue Jesus and His grace and love, we become fully alive in Him (Romans 6:8)!

God has more in store for us than we can ever imagine. He alone can satisfy our every need and desire, so we can fully enjoy the world around us the way He intended.

Right now I want you to take a few minutes to ask yourself, “what have I been pursuing lately?” Is it things of God or things of this world? Wherever you’re at, ask Jesus for His abundant life as you surrender your heart. I can assure you that you won’t be disappointed.


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