• Chasing Worth
    eating disorder,  inspiration

    Chasing Worth

    I was having lunch with my aunt when she told me about a memory she had of me when I was about seven years old. She said that on my 7th Easter, my cousin and I stood up in church and dedicated our lives to Jesus. My memory of this is super cloudy, and we never went to church much when I was a kid. However, I always felt that God was real, and that He was drawing me in. Fast-forward from that childhood moment to ten years later, when I was seventeen and falling apart. I had just broken up with my first boyfriend and was starving myself. I…

  • NEDA Week and the Call of the Gospel
    anorexia,  eating disorder,  the Gospel

    NEDA Week and the Call of the Gospel

    For those of you who don’t know, February 26-March 4 is NEDA week. NEDA week is about raising awareness for different types of eating disorders and encouraging recovery. It’s about ending the stigma and shame associated with this branch of mental illness. It’s about saving the lives of women and young girls, who die physically and spiritually from this disease every year. NEDA Meets Jesus If you’ve been following my blog for a while, then you may know that I have struggled with an eating disorder. Mine was not the type that anyone noticed. I did not stop eating or puke, and I have always been naturally thin. However, due…

  • How to Find Your Self Worth
    confidence,  faith,  recovery

    How to Find Your Self Worth

    This is going to sound totally cliché, but I had a real “God moment” at Chick Fil A a couple of weeks ago. While I waited for my food, I noticed an older woman sitting in a wheel chair. My heart just melted. For some reason she reminded me of my grandma, who passed away last year. The woman and I introduced ourselves and discussed flowers. As I was leaving the restaurant, she said something that caught me off guard: It’s nice to know you.  How many people do we meet everyday, yet we don’t even really know or see their worth?  At that moment, when I looked into the…

  • confidence,  eating disorder,  recovery

    An Unexpected Lesson on Confidence

    There I was, looking in the mirror of the thrift store fitting room as I tried on a pair of super cute jeans. I didn’t like the reflection I saw, and for some reason,  I was having a hard time getting over it. If you’ve been following my blog for a while now, then you know that I’m in recovery from an eating disorder.  Although I have come a long way, there are still moments when I lose confidence in who I am. This was one of those times. As I threw on my regular clothes and left the fitting room, I tried to shrug off the negative thoughts about my appearance…

  • fashion,  polyvore

    Bell Sleeves + Lent

    Happy Friday lovely readers and followers! Even  though I am not Catholic, I still like to give something up for Lent. It’s like a great big fast, which is awesome for any community of Christian believers who partake in it together. Most people give up some kind of food for Lent, but not this girl. I remember using Lent as an excuse to give up sweets, but it was all about restricting in order to serve my eating disorder.  Since I am in recovery, I choose not to do food fasts. There are plenty of other things to give up, and the purpose of fasting is not to lose weight…