Fearfully Wonderfully Me

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Confession–I hate scheduling blog posts. Although I may plan to write about certain topics, I find that I just can’t force it creatively.

So here’s to tonight’s rant (yes, it’s Tuesday night as I write this). Right now I have a migraine and it sucks. It feels like my whole body has been working against me these last couple of years. I have IBS, POTS, and these stupid neurological migraines.

And yet, even as I write this I feel guilty for complaining. After all, I don’t have cancer or anything. I really am quite blessed. I guess it’s just hard because I have so much I want to be doing like work and becoming a yoga instructor, but my body is almost always tired or dizzy. And of course, it’s always frustrating when no one can give you any clear cut answers.

Anyway, after this past weekend’s hospital visit for unexplainable dizziness and low blood pressure, I’ve decided I’ve had it. It looks like I will be going out of state this summer to specialists to finally get more answers and better treatment.

I’m not giving up. The devil will not beat me. I know where my hope is found. My life is completely anchored in Christ, and I know I’ll come out stronger because of this. God is doing a good thing in my body, and I am learning to trust in Him.

I’m asking for prayers of healing and answers please! And if any of you reading this suffer from any chronic health condition–you are not alone. God sees you, and He loves you. He has a plan, even though we can’t always see what He’s doing.

Sometimes God takes life’s biggest battles and uses them to draw us closer to Him. Sometimes the challenges of life are what anchors us to our one true hope–Jesus Christ.

This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil (Hebrews 6:19 NKJV).

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Sometimes in the moments

Of a quietly darkened night,

I wonder what there is to be  thankful for.

All the hurt, the lies, and the fear of this world

Make me doubt for anything more.

But then  You find me–

Ripening my soul with the sweetest touch.

It’s the sunlight that comes through the dusty window,

Or the feeling of the crisp winter air at my face.

Because I know that every minute can be spent

Wasted in my weary mind,

Or they can be used to paint the world with Your vivid colors.

Every laughter and cry

Is a gift that must be cherished,

Because they mean that life happened here.

Even in weakness there is beauty–

Just as a feather alone falls from grace,

With You it joins and takes perfect flight.

Though a heart may shatter

It can be made new.

Though someone may take it and leave it full of cracks,

You can fill them with Your love.

I take a minute and close my eyes–

Hearing Your whisper in the wind.

You give me breath when

I have nothing left to spare,

And You give me life when all my will is gone.

Every song is a prayer to heaven,

Reaching  up to You in the moments

Of this quietly darkened night.

–Written by Emily S. at fearfullywonderfullyme.com

Please feel free to comment and share! I only ask that you link back to my blog. Thanks for reading! I pray that you have a Happy Thanksgiving. May you find little moments to be still and drink in the presence of our Heavenly Father.


How to Live By God's Spirit


As Christians, there is a common scenario that is probably familiar to all of us: someone gets hurt or sick and we pray for them to be healed. However, that’s also when those feelings of doubt can come creeping in and we wonder, “what if they’re not healed?”

This has troubled me for quite some time. I have witnessed healings and miracles, and I fully believe in the active presence of the Holy Spirit. However, just like everyone else, even I have doubts. I get frustrated when my prayers aren’t answered right away, and sometimes I can’t help but wonder if it was because I didn’t pray hard enough.

Like I said before, we can all probably relate to these times of unanswered prayer. But we are missing something…This isn’t about us!

Once again, I find myself writing these words. This is the truth–it’s all about Jesus. We can’t make our prayers come true no matter how often or how hard we pray. We are not God, and I think that’s quite a relief! Even though we might not see all of our prayers answered right away, we have to understand that God will work everything out for our good and His glory in the end. 

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28 KJV).

You see, none of us can really view the whole picture from where we’re at right now; we’re only allowed tiny glimpses. I truly believe that in the end, when we are face to face with Jesus, we will see how our prayers affected not just our own lives–but the lives of those around us. 

Last Friday I was supposed to tell you about my new position as Youth Leader for the student ministry of my local church (and of course I forgot). I feel so honored to be a part of this ministry; It is truly amazing how God will use us if we ask and are willing to step outside our comfort zones!

While at one of our worship nights, I heard the youth pastor say something that really struck me: when we do things for others and step out in faith to pray for people, we are elevating Jesus above ourselves!

When we are truly living life for God, we begin to realize that we are not the ones to be glorified–Jesus is. 

 Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life (John 12:24-25 NIV). 

We are this kernel of wheat! Next time you find yourself stepping out in faith, whether it be through prayer, missions, a new career, or even just talking to somebody new–remember that your act of obedience and love is enough. Living by the Holy Spirit does not mean that we are responsible for miracles and saving the world. It is all about being obedient and stepping out in faith, trusting God to take care of the rest. 

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The Cross is Not a Crutch


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I’ve often heard the argument from non-Christians that God is just a crutch for believers. He makes us feel better, gets us through tough times, and helps us deal with things when we can’t handle reality.

Well, I guess you could say there can be some truth to that statement. Here’s what I mean by this: God isn’t a crutch, but religion can be used as one.

Knowing this truth requires the understanding that being religious and following Jesus are two totally different concepts. With religion you can pray, go to church, study your Bible, and say and do all of the right things. Religion is about us and what we can do to make ourselves look and feel good. 

Being a true follower of Jesus Christ is realizing that there is nothing we can do anymore–God’s already done it all by sacrificing His one and only Son for our salvation. Everything else in our “church culture” is just extras that can either draw us closer to God or lead us into the dangerous crutch territory of religion.

But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him (Hebrews 11:6 KJV).

As Christians, we need to examine our intentions in all that we do. Am I going to church to worship God and have fellowship with other believers? Or am I going to make myself look good? Am I reading the Bible to learn God’s truth and grow closer to Him? Or am I cherry-picking verses to feel good about myself? These questions are tough to ask, but then again, Jesus is all about tough love.

A crutch does not heal your wounds or transform you; it merely carries you through until something else fixes you. I’ve never seen people who are hobbling on actual crutches get healed by them. They need a doctor to provide treatment for their lives.

This is the same concept with religion. Following doctrines and legalism might get us through the hard times and make us feel god. In fact, a lot of people only call on God when they need help. The only true way we can be healed and redeemed from our sin and brokenness is by calling on Jesus, our great physician, and allowing His Holy Spirit to work in our lives.

If someone were to say to me that I am using God as a crutch in my life, I would tell them that they are wrong. I don’t need God to help me hobble through life’s pain and challenges–I need Him to transform me so I can run the race set before me.

Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God (Hebrews 12:1-2).

Thanks for reading! Please feel free to comment and share 🙂

Love, Emily <3

POTS–Waiting Upon the Lord


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Early this week I found out the answers to some troubling questions about my health. It turns out I have POTS–or Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (you can see why POTS is easier lol).

Basically, whenever I stand up or stand/walk for long periods of time, my blood pressure drops and my heart rate speeds up. This causes frequent dizziness, chest tightness, weakness, fatigue, and fainting. My case is mild compared to others I have read about. I have passed out a few times though, and it’s very hard to keep up with my fellow active friends this way.

I want to bring attention to POTS for many reasons. The number one reason is because POTS is actually more common than one might think (especially in young women), but frequently misdiagnosed or mild enough to not cause troubling issues. I used to think I was just imagining things or lazy because I never wanted to do anything but sleep all day. I can’t work right now because of the fainting that comes with the physical demands of part-time jobs, but I know that it should get better in the future.

If any of you are having these symptoms please see a cardiologist who knows about this disorder (and who can rule out other diseases). I am so blessed to have a doctor who knew what he was talking about!

I also want to bring attention to POTS because I know that God can be glorified through my illness. I know that He is working His healing in my life. Right now I have to wear compression stockings for better circulation and take a pill to raise my blood pressure. Hopefully, this will not be permanent. I’m allowing Jesus to take care of me and use me to inspire others living with a chronic illness. 

Another interesting thing I learned is that this is probably related to my IBS. Apparently they are both disorders of the autonomic nervous system, and that many patients will have both together. Again, if you are having these symptoms please educate yourself and see a physician who is educated on these disorders/diseases.

No matter what I face, I know that God is with me. As long as I keep seeking His face, I know that I will always go forth and conquer!

 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint (Isaiah 40:31 KJV).

For more information on POTS, see the links below (do not diagnose yourself–please discuss this with your doctor!).



Thanks for reading! You all give me encouragement. Feel free to comment and share 🙂

Love, Emily <3

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