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Slaying Shadows with God’s Armor~Part 1

Hello lovely readers and followers! Today I’m launching a new series called Slaying Shadows with God’s Armor. This series will be focusing on all 6 attributes of the armor of God listed in Ephesians 6:10-18. I hope you enjoy! 

Madeline swallowed back the lump in her throat as she ran her hands through her dark, sweaty locks.

She had been practicing for hours, on that old dusty laminate floor–turning and leaping to try and master every single move. She knew she never would, but that didn’t matter. It was a ballerina’s curse.

She finally gave in, her stomach crying out for nourishment. When was her last meal? She stood up trembling, realizing that both appetite and sleep were hard to come by these days.

As she left the desolate studio, Madeline just couldn’t shake the feeling of a shadow following her out the door. It was always there, oppressing her soul with fear and throwing off every turn or step she took. Life was a dance, and she just couldn’t find her rhythm.

By the time Madeline parked her car and made it up the stairs to her apartment, her feet were killing her. She could barely move her toes, as pointe shoes had a way of melting them together into a blistering fury.

She was so preoccupied by her aching feet that she barely noticed the small box in front of her door. It caught the corner of her eye, like a ray of light breaking up the shadows.

“What?” Madeline picked up the box, scrutinizing it as she entered her apartment. Christmas was a month ago, and she didn’t really have any friends to drop off a surprise gift.

When Madeline sat on her sofa and turned on a lamp, she noticed the piece of paper taped to the box. Taking it eagerly into her delicate hand, Madeline read aloud.

My dear Madeline,

I know you’ve been weary lately. Life can be so hard and confusing. I hope this gift takes some pressure off of you. Remember that whenever life becomes too much, you can always call on My name. My burden is light enough for you to dance through. Take this armor and have courage. 

Love, Jesus.

Madeline blinked as she dropped the paper. Was this a joke? She didn’t come from a religious family, and her dance academy didn’t exactly boast many devout Christians.

Take this armor and have courage. She didn’t know what the letter meant, but receiving a box that claimed to hold God’s armor peaked her curiosity.

Madeline sighed and opened the box. When she saw the pair of powder pink suede boots, her breath caught.

“No way,” she mused as she slipped them on her feet. The moment she stood and her soles hit the bottom, Madeline felt relief flood her body. The pain in her feet instantly vanished, as well as the hunger and fatigue.

They fit perfectly.

“Whoa.” Madeline couldn’t help but grin. Without another thought, she grabbed her jacket and ran outside.

The parking lot of the apartment complex was dark, the winter moon tucked beneath a blanket of clouds. Madeline didn’t care. She giggled like a child as she swayed and turned, using the blanket of snow beneath her feet to give her leverage as she spun like a figurine.

There was no pain. No fear. No stress.

Only freedom. Only peace.

When she finally stopped dancing, Madeline looked out over the snow glazed parking lot. Although her world was dark and silent, every single footprint she had left behind shimmered like a light, casting away any shadow that had surrounded her.

Madeline gasped as she saw what was etched into the snow print of each step. She raised her foot to examine the bottom of her new boot. Sure enough, engraved into its sole was one word.

“Jesus,” Madeline exhaled as the fog rolled out of her mouth. She didn’t understand much about God, and at this point, she didn’t have to. All she knew was that she needed this Jesus, and she would do anything to find Him.

Madeline turned to head toward her car, but then stopped when she noticed the figure standing near the curb. A low male voice echoed across the lot.

“Looking for something?”

…and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. (Ephesians 6:15 NIV). 

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3 Ways You Can Help Change The World

On a cold Friday morning, I opened my Bible, sitting cross-legged on my bedroom carpet. As I prayed, I felt a sudden urge to pray for airlines and their pilots, asking God to bless and protect them. Why did I do this? Despite my new found love of flying, I truly believe that the Holy Spirit led me to pray.

Later that afternoon when I checked the news, I saw the terrifying report of the Fort Lauderdale airport shooting.  My heart broke. So many lives were lost, hurt, and traumatized. I felt chills run down my spine as I realized why God had led me to pray.

When I looked back at my Bible reading for that day, my jaw dropped as I realized what God was telling me.

Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand toward the sky so that darkness spreads over Egypt—darkness that can be felt. So Moses stretched out his hand toward the sky, and total darkness covered all Egypt for three days. No one could see anyone else or move about for three days. Yet all the Israelites had light in the places where they lived (Exodus 10:21-23 NIV). 

This world is no stranger to darkness. Like Egypt during the Old Testament, our world is stained with sin and disobedience. A lot of times the hatred, violence, and evil in this world can overwhelm us. But before you get too depressed, please know that there is hope!

If we keep reading in verse 23, we can see how God’s people were a source of light in such oppressive darkness. Do you want to be a light in this fallen world? Do you want to radiate peace, love, and hope in times of hatred and contention?

These 3 steps will help you change the world for God’s glory.

Realize Your Identity

You can’t be a light for God if you don’t even know what you’re worth in His eyes.

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light (1 Peter 2:9 NIV).

This might be one of my favorite verses in the Bible. Trust me, knowing your identity in Christ is essential for living a transformed and influential life. Knowing your worth changes everything.

So who are you?

When you choose Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you are chosen, royal, holy, God’s, and called.

What are you called to do? To bring light into this dark world. This all starts by realizing that Jesus has brought you out from darkness and bondage into new life.

For more on identity, check out this post here.

Share Your Story

Now that you’ve come back from the breathtaking revelation of who you are as a child of God, it’s time for you to share your story.

You’ve probably heard other Christians talk about how important it is to share your testimony. All that really means is to share what God has done for you. It’s your spiritual before and after.

If you’re like me, the idea of sharing your story can be nerve-racking. Who would even want to listen? If you want people to truly listen to you and be affected by your testimony, you need to build relationships with them.

Do what Jesus did–eat a meal together or meet for coffee. Hang out together and share life. Once people get to know you authentically, your testimony will begin to flow naturally.

Walk in Love

Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. —Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. knew exactly what it meant to be a light for God. He chose to walk in peace in a land full of violence. He chose to love in a world full of hate.

What will we choose? Will we choose to love our neighbors, even when we disagree with them? Will we choose to forgive our enemies, even when it hurts? Will we choose to do the right thing, even when it’s inconvenient?

I’m not perfect. I mess up in this walk of love more times than I care to admit. But life is a journey that God takes His children on to watch them grow.

Jesus’ commandments were simple, yet so profound: love God and love people–including ourselves. Love has been washed down in our culture by the media and consumer driven markets. Do we even know what it means to truly walk in love?

Jesus is love (1 John 4:8), and He died willingly for us even when we were at our lowest. Are we willing to lay down our pride, our hurts, and our wants for others in this dark age? Are we willing to love the broken who are crying out for hope and healing?

If your answer is yes, then you are ready to shine a light for God. You are ready to change the world, one life at a time.

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12 NIV). 

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No Fear in Love


It’s no secret that there is a lot of evil in this world. With all of the mass shootings in America and overseas, and the spread of evil terrorist groups, it seems that the world is falling into darkness.

The Bible said that this would happen. Evil has been in the world since the fall of Adam, and it will only continue until the Lord Jesus Christ comes back. Why do these things happen? People have all sorts of explanation–including blaming God. Just to be clear, God does not cause sin to happen, but He does allow it to happen here on earth (James 1:13).

As sons and daughters of God we will have to live in this fallen world until Jesus comes back to banish all evil and reign eternally. So where does this leave us right now? As we watch the news and see all of the reports of violence and immorality, where do we seek shelter? As we live among hatred and perversion, where can we find peace and love?

To be honest, I have been asking myself these questions over and over as anxiety sweeps over me. It’s even nerve wrecking just typing this post and thinking about all of the evil in the world. However, we don’t have to be afraid. Even though we live in a sinful world–and are sometimes still victims of sin–we can rise above it.We have the power and peace of the Most High God.

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world (John 16:33 KJV).

Our peace is obviously not going to come from this world. The Bible does not promise us that life will be all roses and sugar once we come to know Christ. In fact, things can become harder as God cleanses us of our former selves. Our peace can’t come from our material items, our house, our family, or our loved ones. It can only come from one source that is eternal and never changing–Jesus.

We can’t always change our circumstances, however, we can change how we react to our life situation. 

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7 KJV). 

With the spirit of God residing in us, we do not have to live in fear and anxiety all the time. The Holy Spirit allows us to live with power from above. He also allows us to live a life of love and peace.

I found that in the midst of life’s greatest stresses and hardships, I sometimes find it hard to carve out the time to pray or read my Bible. I sometimes lose the will and energy to worship. Even though I feel the pull of my spirit to God’s, I sometimes fail to seek Him until I’m at my breaking point. 

This is the trick of the devil. He does not want us to draw close to God in our time of need, instead satan would rather leave us isolated in our anxiety or depression. We have to learn to fight this evil trick and seek God first each day–no matter what it brings. This is a practice, and I am getting better at it over time.

If there is only one thing you get from reading this post, I hope it’s that you know you’re not alone. Don’t let the enemy isolate you. If you are young and trying to find God’s calling for your life, then you are especially vulnerable. Trust God, because He will take care of you. He has a perfect plan that sometimes we can’t always see. 

Below I posted a song from Steffany Gretzinger called “No Fear in Love.” Steffany is an amazing artist who is so anointed by God, and this song has helped me through my anxiety tremendously. Please feel free to check it out!

 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love (1 John 4:18 NKJV).

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Crazy Little Thing Called Grace


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I’ll admit it, sometimes being a Christian can feel like being in a circus act. We must say the right things, do the right things, and think the right thoughts. Oh, and let’s not forget that joyful attitude we’re always supposed to have.

This isn’t how it should be. And you know what? This is one of the major things wrong with modern-day “Christianity.” It’s the religion that preaches mercy for others while letting you beat up on yourself. This isn’t Christianity at all! So what happened?

It’s simple–we forgot about grace. The crazy little thing about grace is that it cannot be earned; it can only be received. Grace is God’s greatest gift to us.

Although we (hopefully) nod our heads and agree that we should extend this grace to our stumbling brothers and sisters, what about ourselves? I’m a perfectionist by nature, and I also struggle with anxiety. Although most of the time I am merciful toward others, I have a hard time forgiving myself.

I, like a lot of people, place a lot of undue pressure on myself. I expect perfection and to be just like Jesus, only to forget that He is the only perfect thing in me. I forget that I’m allowed (and expected) to screw up. I forget that I have an Advocate in heaven who is quick to forgive me and lift me up when I stumble.

My little children, these things I write to you, so that you may not sin. And if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous.  And He Himself is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the whole world (1 John 2:1-2 NKJV).

I forget how far I’ve come in my walk with Jesus. One thing is for certain, this obsessive anxiety with being so good and perfect is not helping me in the least. In fact, it’s turning myself inward so much that I forget about God and the needs of the people He has placed in my life. This is exactly what the devil wants.

And you know what? I’m not going to let this perfectionism and anxiety get me down. I’m going to rest in the grace of the Most High God, and I’m going to forgive myself for beating myself up. It’s time to let go and enjoy life. It’s time to be led by the Holy Spirit completely, instead of expecting to get the job done myself. It’s time to abide in the peace and joy of God’s love.

 Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom (2 Corinthians 3:17 NIV).

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